I blame Hollywood

for my recent breakup. The media has spent so much time idealizing the idea of 'true love' and soulmates, that flatout compatibility, great sex, and a connection on a much deeper level have been completely thrown out the window. I don't know that Ad and I are 'made for each other', but I do know that we are great together- I think that's what is killing me the most. I miss the companionship and security and just the knowledge that I was loved. It's very comforting. Can't a relationship be about those? Why the hell does he have to 'feel it'? He hasn't felt it before, so how does he even know he'll ever get to that point? What if him ending our relationship is the worst mistake of his life? Who knows? I'm just freaking sick of being sad and heartbroken and having to act all normal because he's acting like nothing happened.